Incredibly Intentional

Om Sai Ram

Hope October was a good month and wishing to all Sai Devotees a very happy diwali. Let Baba make all his children happy through his blessings. Baba, I pray that each and every one in this country celebrate the festival with utmost satisfaction and happiness.

Did so many things mean while, hence unable to blog out. Me and my husband had a wonderful holiday trip and just returned with Sai Leelas. I usually tend to seach out for Baba's picture where ever I go. I feel so blessed and secured that he is with us. During our trip this time, did not get any chance to see Baba and the weather was so pathetic with mist, fog and additionally heavy rains too. On our day of departure, we vacated our room and went out for a final outing just to see missed out places. I made a strong wish that it shouldn't rain and we get into the bus safe. And, Baba heard my wish and prayer, so it never rained that day. Misty showers of course showed its presence. It was too misty that we couldn't figure out who was in front of us. We both went out for a boating ride (which was too painful) and returned to the boat house. Yes, I did see Baba in a vehicle. That too as an idol and not as a picture. His quiet un-usual sitting pose in dwarakamai. Just felt as if the entire trip was blessed by him. The vehicle did not move until we both left the place. May be a kid will be happy having 10 rupees, but what if a kid has 10 crores? I had the same happiness when I saw him in an unknown place. Felt as if he was showering his blessings as mist and fog. Had a safe journey back home.

Baba, you have made me write everything, may be I am one of your tool. The reason behind a meaningful life of mine, is you. Please bless everyone with the same feeling.

Jai Sai Ram

All set to write again

Om Sai Ram

Whilest the best thing in life that one could ever do is to feed the poor in times of hunger. With that note, I am again set to write. Life takes us to some point where there can be nothing to search. This is life and this happens to every small creature on earth. I was just taking a real long deep breath to get back to the pace of writing. Many things happened and may be thats what we call as "small nothings".

I got an opportunity to experience divine powers. Do not have any words to describe those wonderful feelings. Albeit, this was out of my own experience. Got Baba's Udhi from Shirdi, what more could one get as an unexpected gift. Nothing in specific happened to blog out. Perhaps, everything happens normally as intended by Baba. Personally, my space has increased a lot with Sai Nath and surprisingly my husband's too. This time is something great that my husband does not have words to explain Sai Leelas.We both visited Sai temple in Mylapore just two days before his maha samadhi. Vijayadasami (October 15th) seemed to be a day filled with positive vibes. Baba made sure that all his children were happy and as he always says, "I will be more active and vigorous even from my tomb", he did prove that. My known ones also experienced some good deeds, though they were very small. I pray Sai Nath for letting us live in this world as HUMANS. I mean humans!!

Jai Sai Ram

Hoping to be my final post of the month

Om Sai Ram

I felt I needed a considerable time to recover from certain things which were again making my life turn upside down. Thought, this would be the apt time to pen my emotions after a GAP. This is a real GAP indeed. May be this time was given to me just to think about Baba and for nothing else. Today, when I am writing, I am wholeheartedly stuck on to the fact that, it is Baba inside me and he is the doer.

A few days back, when I was really trying to catch some sleep in the night (after ruthless nights), I found something fishy.. Quiet abnormal. In technological terms, I would say perternatural. This doesn't usually happen to me. All I am referring to is the dream which I saw. Sneakily, someone else came in my dream and it was something like an authoritative information which Baba indirectly showed me. Few days back, Jai (not my brother) had given me few black and white original 3D pictures of Baba. It was a good three dimensional one, which had a calendar behind. I know for sure that I will not be able to give those photos to many people. My known/closed circle is really a small one. When I was about to sleep, a question popped up my mind to Baba. I asked him, "Why have you made him to give so many calendar photos when I am not going to do anything with it?". Our Sathguru does not answer many questions on the same time. I was thinking to myself that there must be some reason behind this and then and there I went into deep sleep.

My dream was extremely typical. One would call it un-hypothetical infact. I tend to see a rick quiet often near my place and it had a huge photo of Baba stuck in it (This is real and not my dream). In my dream, I intentionally stop the rick and ask a few questions to the driver. I somehow wanted to give this photo of Baba. Yes, I gave it too finally before the dream was over. The un-hidden part is, I had given two pictures - one to the known driver and another one to someone else who owns a rick.

This happened at say, on the 20 or 21st of this month. I did not find the rick once again. Today, when I was about to throw off waste pooja flowers, I came out and saw a rick standing out with Baba's photo on the back mirror. Of course, it is not the one which I usually see. I somehow felt Baba is showing me a hint, went out asked him if it was his own vehicle. He said, yes. I gave him the picture and I did not have a cam to click his smile :)

Tomorrow being Thursday, may be he will keep it for his pooja was all I would think of. Was asking Baba day before yesterday that there was nothing new to write in the blog and why don't you make me write. Today, he has given me a big reason to smile and write. I am happy that I brought about a warm smile in some one's face through Sai Nath. Baba, no one knows where you begin and where you end. You are the "Karanam","Kartha" and everything in this world. Bowing to you for peace and love.

Jai Sai Ram

Pain

Om Sai Ram

I feel it's my responsibility to let others know what pain in life actually means. It took quiet a few long years to know the real meaning of "Pain". I refer to that pain in our life, the one which we normally correlate with the problems of our life. Many of us merely come to a conclusion and associate it with problems, worries, failure, distress, betrayal and many more things.

Our bloved Sathguru gives us all emotions in life. He gives us many "pains" in life. I normally think and sometimes ask him "Why always me baba?". The answer to this question is very simple however, tough to accept. May be our knowledge is so inadequate to understand heavenly things. When, I was into deep thought about these things, which are part and parcel of our life, I certainly understood one solution. The fact that came to my mind was not new to others, but was very much new to me. It took another long time to understand the fact and you might just calculate the time which I took to implement and putforth into action.

There was this small story which I read some time back. A lady was suffering with so much of problems in her life. Never did she rest in peace. Many new problems boomed and made her restless. She became so depressed and asked our lovable Sai Nath, Baba why do you give me so much of pain when I trust you and consider you as my only God. Baba replied: Child, do you know what pain actually means? Do you know which is real pain? The lady said, No. Baba said: Pain is something which happens when a life comes new into this world. That is the real pain which happens when Jeevathma and Paramathma co-incide in this earth.

The lady once again asked: Why do you give me so many problems again and again?
Baba replied: Because, you are my child. I love you and I can play with somone whom I love a lot and not with anyone else.

I simply had tears of happiness in my eyes when I read this. What a wonderful explanation that Baba could give. Wont we want to have problems every time in our life then? I will certainly. If Baba, loves me so much and gives me problems, I want him to give more and more of "pain" in my life. I know he loves me that much and keeps playing with me. He is the one who knows where to begin and to end. He knows what to give, whom to give and when to give. I read this story when I cried to Baba about my problems. He gave me an answer, crisp and clear. This is what he wants from his children. He wants us to surrender us whole-heartedly to him. Expectation leads to dislike - may be this is for humans. But our Sathguru's expectation will lead us to the divine path of love and mercy. Baba, I guess you are expecting me to write more, give me many more experiences to jort down here. **Conditions Apply** :)

Guiding a Benevolent Deed

Om Sai Ram

In Hindu customs, Lord Ganesha is the first and foremost deity to start something. It is considered to be auspicious and righteous. Additionally, it is an acceptable fact that, once you start yourself to do something good to others and in an urge to help the needy, God always travels before you could think. Scientifically, it can be called as premonition or insight. In normal terms, it is "Telepathy". The Almighty knows the inner you and can make you feel satisfied when you tend to do something good. Guru and God are no different. It is of course a thin line that we draw ourselves to differentiate both. I consider Baba as my Guru, God, Guide, Mother and what not. There is a saying which goes like this, "You become what you think". It is absolutely true and has much more meaning in it than we assume.

In an attempt to post something which happens in favor of goodwill and good deeds. I should have posted it yesterday itself, since it was my father's 9th death anniversary. My father was the synonym for humility and can never ever think of someone more humble than him. I am proud to be his daughter since I have inherited some of his qualities too. He was a very studious person and I have never seen him without reading a book in a day. I inculcated the habit of reading from him. It was he who thought me many things, be it studies, behavior, attitude and anything. It reminds me of my childhood days and my relishing memories with my father. I still cannot believe that he is not with me anymore. He travels a lot, so I keep thinking to myself that he has gone somewhere out of town and will be back to home soon :)

My father loves to serve food. I have been following a practice and make sure that I give food atleast to a few people I see. Yesterday, I did the same. Got some ten food packs with sweets in it. Kanchipuram is renowned for temples all around the city. I did find out a close one and distributed food to whomever I saw. I had a dhothi with me which was to be given to someone whom I felt really deserved it. I kept the dhothi in front of Baba in the morning, praying him to show me the right person for this. Food, yes everyone will be ready to get. But, I was not sure as to how many of them would get cloth from me though it was a new one. I wanted to give this to somone whom I saw alone in a temple. I took my vehicle, roamed almost all known places. I did not know that Sundays were holidays for them too. Finally, I found one old man in the temple which stood behind our house. I asked him if he is okay with the offer that I had for him. He was happy with it. I took the dhothi, with some fruits and eleven rupees as dakshin gave it to him. I was immensely happy when he said, "Nalla iru ma". Whatelse could be a better blessing than this.

My husband came to a conclusion and said that he will make this as a practice whenever possible (though he was not present). It is such an experience to feed someone when they are starving and to drape a person when they are in need of good clothing. All these made my day. I couldn't just come out from it easily. Though I wrote yesterday here, it is now I am able to concentrate more. Baba helped me to do everything in a smooth way. I did face a few obstruction when I started from home. Baba was there with me guiding the entire day, if not nothing would have been possible. This is also something which Baba made me think of. I cannot imagine anything without his intereference in my life hereon. Baba, help me and my husband to involve in many such good things. I pray to you humbly for all that you have done so far. I know my father will also be happy for what I had done yesterday. It is not just yesterday, please make me feel the same thing whenever I could think of helping others. It is you, who is behind everything. Make me get going......

Progressive Presence

Om Sai Ram

It is my contemptible responsibility to post another important incident. Albeit, I have mentioned in my earlier posts about this and also mentioned that it resembles a part of Sai Satcharithra, it takes me to another world of pure, innocent devotion whilst writing these experiences. Quiet a few things which my brother Jai Ganesh told me before the day of Ganesh Chathurthi. Jai's one of elder brother had to relocate his residence.

I think it is one of those good old convention in India to have a house warming ceremony. Well, I do not know about other parts of the globe, to me, this means something that's done on an auspicious day and a handful of known people and relatives are a part of this small, formal celebration. This is a normal attitude that is followed in a very traditional way. In India, people celebrate this as a ceremony for not only buying a new house, but for also shifting to a new rented house. It is believed that these small nothings, brings prosperity and enchantment to a family. Jai's elder brother had invited him to be a part of this celebration. Jai thought to himself that he should give atleast a picture of Baba, since this is really going to be a new begining for them. Deplorably, Jai did not find any picture nor for some reason he had forgotten about it. Nonetheless, he thought to himself and apologised Baba for forgetting this. In hindu customs, it is a firm trust that, once a God or Godess enters a house, the house becomes fulfilled. This is still a belief and many at times a proven theorey too. Once, Jai entered the new house, he smelled everything to be new and promptly turned his head towards the wall. That's there he found a huge picture of Baba pasted on the wall. This was ultimately the happiest moment of the day for the entire family. If Baba wants to stay somewhere, we really dont have to take too much of effort to take him there. I have noticed this many times. Be it while travelling, visiting a neighbors house, before starting to the temple and I can give so many instances. The landlord of that house had vacated  just two days before and they did not remove off the picture for some reason. How impeccably happy could one be to experience such a marvel? I also felt the same when he said this to me and I did promise him that I will for sure get this written here.

Furthermore, I felt like correlating this to an incident to one of the devotees of Shri Sai Baba in the Satcharithra. I have one more strong reason for making my blog feel lively and I am sure that Baba would make me write even many more things here. I have a positive vibe in me, once I have documented something here. It makes me feel more comfortable and at ease that I am able to jort down things here. Few of many things constitute a huge story. That's how this is also getting closer to the making of another new divine story. I do not know many people, my closed ones are countable. Though, I make friends easily. It's indeed an awesome experience to document others' experiences. Baba blesses me in everything I do. I will continue to do my work with utmost dedication.

Jai Sai Ram